Hello, God?

(A True Story by Fratre Gary Romans)

In 2002 I was proudly driving my new Saab 9-5 on the Sunset Highway on my way to Vancouver. This was my first luxury car: heated leather seats, a powerful sound system, and a sporty turbocharged engine. Saabs were also considered one of the safest cars made in 2002. What’s more, I enjoyed the quirkiness of Saabs, their relative rareness, and a wedge-shaped design that stood out from 2002 mainstream brands. It was always fun to watch someone not familiar with driving a Saab fumble around trying to find where to put the key. Saab was the first to put it in the center console between the front seats.

It was rush hour, and I was in no hurry. KMHD Jazz was playing Miles Davis, and I was humming along. I often use car travel as a moving meditation, and I was thinking about my last AMORC lesson.

AMORC lesson? In 1991 I was depressed, looking for direction and something to believe in. Religion would be nice, but my thirteen years of Catholic school starting in the early 1950s taught me to fear God, not love him. That experience made me skeptical of any organization that deals with religion, spirituality, or ways of thinking or living. I was in San Jose, CA, on a business trip, and I had an afternoon free. I knew about the Rosicrucian Egyptian Museum and remembered seeing Rosicrucian ads in old magazines at my uncle’s farm in Michigan. I was intrigued and decided to check the museum out. It was an excellent museum, so I looked for information about the Rosicrucians, expecting a hard sell. There was nothing about joining in the museum! That was attractive to me. I figured that any organization that didn’t care if I wanted to join or not was something worth investigating. I quickly found that The Ancient Mystical Order Rosae Crucis (AMORC) would welcome me as a member, so I joined with some skepticism. I started getting weekly lessons studying mysticism that slowly moved me along the path to developing mastery of life.

I don’t usually disclose my membership in AMORC. I wear a unique AMORC ring and respond if asked, but I’ve found that few people understand mysticism and often respond by asking me to show them a magic trick. No! We study the philosophy that explores the fundamental nature of reality and the metaphysical laws that govern the universe. There is no magic or supernatural woo-woo stuff at all.

So I continued my drive, paying attention to traffic but also pondering the meaning of life. I was making the turn from the Sunset Highway to I-405 when traffic got much heavier, and I came to a dead stop in the middle lane of I-405 near Yamhill Street. After only a few seconds, an unusual movement in my rearview mirror caught my eye. A car in the left lane, moving at what appeared to be a high rate of speed, was heading toward the middle lane and looking like it had no intention of stopping. Luckily for me, my reflexes kicked in. I had just enough time to brace myself against the seat and turn my wheels enough so that when that car plowed into the left rear of my Saab, I was pushed into the Lexus SUV in front of me at an angle, enough so that my airbag did not explode, unlike the airbag of the car that hit me.

I imagine that many of you reading this have been involved in a serious auto accident and remember that your first impulse was to check for injuries. I did, and I’m relieved to say that my Saab performed perfectly, and I felt no pain and saw no blood. The well-engineered seat of the Saab absorbed all the stress of the accident and protected me completely.

But I did hear a deep male voice that asked me, “Are you all right?”  I came very close to having my first out-of-body experience and wetting myself!

I admit that I took LSD a few times in the 1960s, and before I stopped drinking, I had a few alcohol-induced hallucinations. I understand the difference between actuality and delusions, and this was no delusion. This was a real, physical voice talking to me. God?

It is amazing how long two seconds can seem after a trauma. In the first quarter second I thought, “My God, it’s God!” In the next three-quarters of a second, I reviewed all the Rosicrucian teachings for something that told me how to talk to God. Nothing there. The next half-second was a review of the thirteen years of indoctrination I had in Catholic schools. Nope. The final half-second was spent coming up with something pithy to say that would be the most important thing I’ve ever said in my life, and then I mumbled in a high, squeaky voice, “I’m OK,” hoping God would say more.                                                    

Then the voice spoke again, “This is OnStar. We know where you are and where the damage is. Stay inside the car. We’ve already called the police and an ambulance.”

OnStar was still new in 2002. It is a connected vehicle service that provides automatic crash response and optional other features; optional other features that I didn’t buy, so I forgot about the free automatic crash response. I am pleased that my complaint to OnStar was listened to after the accident. They now reverse the order of the sentences that they use to respond to an accident, and they say, “This is OnStar. Are you all right?” It is my contribution to the safety and mental health of drivers. My 2002 Saab was totaled, and I received a brand-new 2003 Saab 9-5 with OnStar, and still without the options. I eventually gave that car to my grandson on his 16th birthday, and he is still driving the twenty-two-year-old car in 2025.

I’ve now been a Rosicrucian student for over 33 years, and I still haven’t found anything to be skeptical about. I continue to receive and study weekly lessons. There is still no magic and nothing supernatural, but what is included has been life-changing for me. I fully plan to meet God when I die, listen to some Miles Davis with him (maybe with the real Miles!), and share this story for a good laugh together.

© Gary Romans

Video Discussion: The Gnostic Mary, 2 pm, Dec. 15

maria.cropJoin us for the next installment of our new online video discussion group.  This group is live and for members only. If you wish to participate, email us your member number and we will invite you to the event.  You must have a good internet, a laptop with a camera, and a set of headphones with a mic.

In 1617, Michael Maier’s Symbola Aureae Mensae was published with the frontispiece illustration known as Maria Prophetissa. In this illustration, Maria Prophetissa, who may also be known as the Maria of the Gnostic tradition, draws our attention to the alchemical process which appears to be coming to fruition before our eyes. This illustration is robust with alchemical symbolism. For this December’s online discussion group, we will read from an article that examines the symbolism found here in greater detail and learn some of what Maria seeks to impart to us. – Frater Ken, Online Discussion Host

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Rosicrucian Festival of Lights, Portland, 2 pm, Dec. 22

diwali-candlesPlease join us for our joyous end of the year winter solstice ceremony. All are welcome to this public ritual.

Parading solemnly with candles, we will acknowledge our part as creatures in the natural world with responsibility for spreading light in the spiritual world.

This ceremony must happen on or near the Winter Solstice, and only once.  This means if you miss it in Portland, it won’t be offered in Wilsonville.  This is a beautiful ceremony that aligns us with the tradition of welcoming greater daylight into the darker days of winter.

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Orientation, Neophyte Forum, Initiations: Wilsonville, 2 pm, Dec. 8

Initiations.Temple.

This is another installment in our ongoing Neophyte review series. This will be perfect for some of the many new members we’ve been contacted by recently. These reviews are also good for existing members who could use a refresher.  All of AMORC teachings are laid out in the Neophyte degrees.

We will also hold Pronaos initiations for those members who have requested them.  Any member who attends three convocations in a year may make a written request to the Grand Counselor and receive an initiation.  The Pronaos initiations are a venerable rite that will increase your sense of purpose and bond with the Pronaos. It will help to strengthen our local egregore as we seek to rebuild our temple into a Chapter. Email  nwamorc.Donohue@gmail.com to request this induction.

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